To look again.

I know I have posted this song before but I just realized that this is the perfect song to dedicate to my week long love affair with the imaginary.

The first time I heard this song, I immediately loved it. Then I wondered- will there ever come a time that I would actually be in a situation like this?

Hello situation.

:))





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Love grows in me like a tumor, parasites bent on devouring its host. I'm developing my sense of humor, till I can laugh at my heart between your teeth, till I can laugh at my face beneath your feet. Skillet on the stove is such a temptation, maybe I'll be the lucky one that doesnt get burned. What the fvck was I thinking?

Love plows through me like a dozer, I've got more give than a bale of hay, and there's always a big mess left over. What did you do? What did you say?

Skillet on the stove is such a temptation, maybe I'll be the special one that doesnt get burned. What the fvck was I thinking?

Love tears me up like a demon. Opens the wounds and fills them with lead, and I'm having some trouble just breathing.
If we werent such good friends I think that I'd hate you. If we weren't such good friends I'd wish you were dead. Oh it's so embarrasing. I'm this awkward and uncomprable thing, and I'm running out of places to hide.

What the fvck was I thinking?

But no, I don't wish him death.

At least VDAY this year was different.

Nutrition By The Cup

I had one weird, funny, exciting, devastating, tiresome, happy- and what not 2 weeks.

Feb 6 was my first day at work. I work as a cashier at Chowking, Cerritos.

It's funny because as a kid, my other dream (aside from my very pangarap- to be a teacher) was always to be a cashier. Me and my cousin, Therese, always pretended to be cashiers back when we were still neighbors and I loved every minute of it. And here I am- dream come true? HAHAHA. I applied there last Jan 12 but didn't expect to get in because 2 weeks had already passed after my interview. I was sure that the reason behind it was my inflexible time schedule. It's 7am- 5pm only because I take the bus. It's an hour long trip from our house. So the earliest trip would take me there by 6:30 am and I didn't want to stay too late because it would be scary to travel alone at night and plus the fact that it would be freezing. I also said that I won't work at weekends because it's family time. Sooo, the manager told me that it was really difficult to find a schedule for me. But Viola! After almost a month, I was asked to report. Yey! I've got me work! YEAH.

The reason why I chose to apply at Chowking was because of the crowd. It meant that I would most probably be surrounded by Filipino people. That meant less pressure.

The first day was scary because I had to immediately deal with customers and poke at the monitor. I had to take orders and look for them in the computer menu. The meals were in folders so I had to think which category it belonged to and I had NO idea. For the record, I have to say, I have never eaten at a Chowking store everr. I mean everrr. I was never a fan. I don't know why I never tried one back in Davao. Everything was new to me. Thank God I had Kuya Rom to ask help from. He was VERY patient with me and really helped me to feel at home at Chowking. It's sad though cause I only had 3 days to work with him because he moved somewhere else to pursue his dreams. Well, I'm just happy that it was him who welcomed me to the "working" world. I AM NOW EARNING WAAAY BEFORE MY TWO OLDER SIBLINGS. HAHAHAHA HELLOOO. HAHAHA XD


At work, I also have fun cause I have new pinoy friends. There are like four 19-ish teens (teens still right? :D) who were somewhat new here too. So it was cool to have more people to add to my friends list.

On my 3rd day at work, my co-workers (I can't believe I'm saying that XD) invited me to go bowling with them. We went to a bowling alley somewhere at Carmenita.We played Dance Dance Revolution while waiting for our turn and some of the guys played that game where a clamp catches stuff toys. Diba impossible man makakakuha nyan? Or at least in my experience. In my 17 years in this world, it was my first time to see someone actually winning a toy from that game. And I must emphasize, they were able to take SEVEN out of 10 tries!! Weird huh. I got to take home 2. haha :P After playing one set, we decided to leave and eat somewhere. We found a Denny's restaurant so we ate there and I got to know them more. By a little past 3, I was taken home by Kim and her kuya. I had a blast.

Gosh. Documentary naman toh. haha. Antok na ako. Gusto ko pang idocument ang last week ko, bukas na lang siguro. Matulog na ako, I have work tomorrow by 10. So there. :P

I WANT TO TELL YOU ABOUT MY SHATTERED DREAMS.
MAYBE TOMORROW.
HAHAHA. YEAH- SHATTERED. XD

Hi. So how was your week? :p

BELATED HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL! :)
HERE'S A MODERN LOVE SONG I WOULD LOVE TO SHARE WITH YOU.
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Sleeping Beauty’s in a foul mood
for shame she says, "None for you dear prince, I’m tired today."
I’d rather sleep my whole life away than have you
keep me from dreaming.

I said what?

I can't believe I'm saying this- I am soberrr!! haha XD
My hours dedicated to surfing for a DAY 2 weeks ago is WAY
more than the hours I have spent during the PAST WEEK!
Can you imagine????
Well I can't.
I just visit and look at my pages.
Reply to some messages and comment on my friends' photos.
I haven't replied to any of my friendster comments for like
the longest time and it took me a week to write another blog.
GoodGawd.
I have no time. That is so weird to hear.
I wake up early now.
I burn calories.
I smile.
I laugh.
I say yeah.
:D

The reason:
I found me a job.
Weeh.
I have soooo many stories.
I'm happy.
I mean really.
.. :)
Another shocker.
yeahyeah. \o/\o/\o/
Hope to write a longer one soon.

See yah. :p

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I'm feeling so happy. :D

Fvck was I

I'm off to go job hunting again with Agent J. and yess, today is my second day in Graphic Design Class. Woot! Woot! Just dropped by to post this new song I love. Hey you, yes you! I posted it just for you. Yeah. :)

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If we werent such good friends I think that I'd hate you.
If we weren't such good friends I'd wish you were dead

Oh it's so embarrasing
I'm this awkward and uncomprable thing,
and I'm running out of places to hide

what the fvck was i thinking?

I LOVE BARKADA.

YAHOO. I LOVE THEE. THANKS FOR MAKING THIS POSSIBLE.
I TALKED TO MY FRIENDS FOR 3 WHOLE HOURS USING YM LAST NIGT.
I FELT AS IF I WAS ACTUALLY THERE. YOU GUYS NEVER CHANGE. ; ' )

After 2 and a half months of not seeing each other, they finally made time. They were that busy. They are in one city and their schools are only a 6-peso-fair-ride apart- yet it took them that long to reunite. XD Oh well. That's how my friends are and I absolutely love them for that. It only means less MISSED stories and misadventures for me. haha Keep it up guys. If you continue with that pace, I may be able to hang out with you the next time. hahaha XD

Miss ko na kayo mxdo. :'c Thanx for being my family in DVO. Wala pa rin kau nagbagooo. haha. See you sooon. Padalahan nyo na ako nang pera para maka uwi na ako. ha? txt lang. haha XD

I LOVE BARKADA.
I MISS BARKADA.
THANK YOU BARKADA.
FOREVER & EVER BARKADA.
<3

PS.
Gladys! Monica!
Salamat sa pag cut nang classes para makachat tayo.
Makahilak pud ko ug silya ana ui. hahaha
I HEART THEEE.
Hi Bei.
Haha I HEART THEE TOO :)

YEAH.

Yey. SAT day has passed. I'm sooooo relieved.
\o/\o/\o/\o/\o/\o/\o/\o/\o/\o/\o/

I woke up at 6:00 am during the test day. It felt so weird because it has been a very (and I mean veryveryvery) long time since I've woken up that early. I remember senior year, I wake up at 6:40 and leave for school by 7:15 and arrive by 7:30 IF I'm lucky. HAHA. My dad drove me to CAL State Univ and we arrived there by 7:40am. I stood in line for like an hour. Honestly, I didn't know why it took soo long. At ang malupet pa non, manipis lang yung jacket ko. It was cold that morning but I expected us to be in a heated room so I didn't mind. And like the "I don't like the cold" kind of person that I am- I was freezing. ARR. haha. Peroo ndi lang nagpapaobvious kc nakakahiya. hahaha. Plus there was this guy standing 2 persons in front of me who was so cute. hahahaha. XD He honestly looked like Jesse Matclafe. T_T haha. Absolutely adorable. hahaha. After an agonizing hour long wait, we were all sent to two separate rooms to begin the test. And yes, we were in the same room. And no, I didn't stalk him, it was simply meant to be. hahaha. Dream on, I know. haha

Then the test began. It took four hours to finish that 10 part exam.

It was OK. Wasn't as difficult as I expected. Yipee. Trial exams from the internet were way more demanding than the actual test. The essay question for me was "Are all efforts to reach a goal worth it if the goal is not reached?" That was an easy question in contrast to some of the trial prompts I have tried answering. Math was the easiest. It was all about Algebra and some Geometry. No precalculus! No derivatives! haha. The literature part was the hardest. But still, it was waaaay waaay easier than the trial tests. Though it still had vocabulary that I've never come across in my life, but it was only like 10 items or a little more than that. I think na overrr talaga yung mga galing sa net. NOSEBLEEED.I spent the night before worrying about nothing! Pero I still skipped some items because of lack of time. Rrr. But overall, it was okei. YEY. YEY.

That night, we went to a party at Tita Ruby's house. Food was everywhere, and yess lechon! haha. YUM :9 haha Then I met, Christian. She's 4 and she is sooo purttty and cuuute. I also got to take care of baby Kaikai (take note of the repeated name- so pinoy! haha XD). Christian was my fave. She said she absolutely loves babies and her mom told us about how she asked for a baby sister during Christmas. She was so fond of the baby. She looked sooo cute when we allowed her to hold the baby's bottle. Hinihimashimas pa niya yung forehead ni kakai while the she was sleeping. haha. Cuuute. Then I told her "Tell your dad you want to take care of the baby and ask him if you can take her home." It was supposed to be a joke but she actually did it. She literally dragged her father over and said "Dad I want that baby." We were all laughing and her dad just told her "Soon Darling." haha. I even asked her if she wanted to be a mum and she replied "Yes, I want to have 2 kids. A boy and a girl." A-D-O-R-A-B-L-E. haha I can't help but emphasize that time and time again. haha

That was the end of my day. I pray for more EXCITING days to come. Graphic Design lessons start tomorrow. Yipeeeee! I bet I won't be able to sleep tonight. haha :D WOOT!WOOT! :D

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THE TAKE OVER, THE BREAKS OVER!

Lucky Who?

I got to finish 1 more essay. I do not plan to post it because it was full of b@#$ $*(^. That's how you please them right? XD It was also no where near perfect, soooooooo no thank you. haha. Oh God why don't I have writing skills to please even myself? :X

I am so nervous. I need all the luck I need. I got all my fingers crossed. @_@

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" You think you've got it
Ohh, you think you've got it
But got it just don't get it
Till' there's nothing at all.."
(doomed for mistakes galore.) :-S