When I was a young girl, I would not walk. I thought, why walk when you can run there? An hour took forever, a day dragged on and on. Even summer always seemed to last too long. But now that I'm grown , it's the days that run away. I walk at a leisurely pace. And the people I've known mostly haven't stayed Or when we pass in the street, we don't smile, we don't speak.
Too early to say that I have indeed changed for the better.
Even though I slept late last night because of blogging, I managed to wake up by 6:00am to cook breakfast for my sister. Yes, I'm actually being her mom while I still can. Cooked Torta, serverd rice, orange juice, prepared her baon-OH HA! Mamang Mama!
I was supposed to go back to sleep but I reminded myself- no slacking! no slacking! SOoo, I took a bath to awaken my senses. Since then, until 3 in the afternoon I did all my chores and I mean ALL my chores. From watering the plants, to arranging my drawers, to vacuuming the whole entire house- I did every little thing on my 17 item to do list for today! OH HA! :)
I feel so much better. I realized how relieved I felt after crushing out the last thing on my list with much spare time to watch TV without the guilt.
Day 3 will be on Monday- my parents are here on weekends so I couldn't possibly call it self control- it would be more like they're watching so I have no choice kind of decision making.
Hearing the happiness from my mother's voice was enough gratification for me :)
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-DINNA GONZALES [2008] while watering the dried out backyard. :)
I have approximately 14minutes to finish this post, 10 days before school and 1 day before my parents come home.
Last Monday I got a whole lot of sermon since I left the house all messed up for the nth time. The internet was left on, the windows were open, my tried on clothes all over my bed, etc....- not really ideal things an 18 year old should forget. Since I still have a little more than a week before school, I am now SERIOUSLY taking action. I hate it when I make my parents mad and now I SERIOUSLY hope I will succeed. So, I have a seven day parole to prove how much I could change not only for my family, but of course for myself.
DAY 1
I had a long list of chores. I was off to a good start- - I cooked breakfast for my sister at 6am. (+3) - I went back to sleep and got up by 9. - Had Oatmeal for breakfast (yey) (+2) - Immediately washed the dishes then went to take a bath.(+1) So I decided to turn on my computer, often times a bad idea.(-3)
Well, well, it was. I started syncing photos to my ipod- we all know what happens next. Really, once you pop, you can't stop. More Like, once I pop, I can't stop.
12:30 Still not eating lunch- Still on the computer. (-2) My mom called me and reminded me of what I was supposed to be doing. I got scolded again, which really depressed me. I got angry with myself but I still continued completing the album artwork for my ipod. If only I could ask Santa for self control. I'd give up 5years of gifts under the tree- really.
It went on for hours. (-3) 5:00pm Mom called again. She was in a good mood. She was asking how I was and I was completely confused, then again it made me happy. I got determined so, I went to do some of the chores again.
-Threw away all the junk food which I no longer wanted (+1) -Placed all our stuff toys in a bag and kept it in the closet (+1) -Hid away our belen (+1)
I lost focus and I went off to customize my ipod. All these themes, and icons and pretty buttons- so many choices... I looked at the clock- 8:00pm (-3) My sister arrives from work by 8:10, uhoh. Hurriedly, I warmed the food and arranged the table. .. Sister arrives, only to find out that there was no ICECOLD water because I forgot to put the water bottle back in the refrigerator. My sister had to "talk"with me again.
Then It hit me... again..
I realized how tiring it was to get scolded over and over. It must feel worse to be the one who has to remind like every other hour or so. I really do not mean to hurt my family, so I am now determined more than ever to become a better person. STOP THE CYCLE!STOP THE CYCLE!STOP THE CYCLE!
So, I go superwoman! -Arranged the shelves in the kitchen and placed sticky mats on them.(+2) -Washed the dishes in record time.(+1) -Pushed out the trash.(+1)